You start feeling less guilty missing a meeting and even feel like it can be justified now and again...
you wonder why it’s always the same people commenting again and again ...
.... the uplifting, spiritual gifts and tracts and songs etc just feel burdensome, trite, cumbersome, boring, same old....
and yes, “worldly” people don’t seem so bad and evil and awful and terrible... most of them are quite nice really!
All the study, meeting prep, travel, clothes, book bags, organizing literature and study material week after week... seems less and less biblical and spiritual...
... you get tired of insincere smiles and smiling, and wonder how Jehovah’s happy people are so miserable
... you begin to dread meeting nights, it feels like such a waste of time....
... you do less and less field service, another pointless unfruitful endeavour....